Rewards

No, shayla's not going to talk about monetary or material rewards, but something that is more meaningful to her. The little things her Master does for or allows her when she's been pleasing or simply because he wants to.

Her Master has high standards in what he's expecting from shayla. Everything from the way she speaks and walks to the way she conducts herself while she is away from him has been discussed at some point or another. And shayla has a very good idea of how her Master wishes her to be in almost any situation. If for some reason she is in doubt, she asks. And if she's not in doubt and is in error somehow, he lets her know promptly, so that she can correct her behavior. Shayla does her best to see to it that she is maintaining the standards he is wishing her to maintain. It's something that is always in the back of her mind, regardless of what she is doing or where she is doing it. As time goes on and shayla improves, her Master becomes more frequently pleased with her, and more likely to grant her small indulgences that would not be normally allowed.

It could be anything from some type of food to an outing somewhere. Shayla does not behave well out of motivation to recieve these things. She does so because she seeks to please him; see the smile on his face, hear him tell her he's pleased with her. But that doesn't mean the little indulgences that Master allows her aren't appreciated. The opposite is true, in fact. Often when he grants her some little thing tears will come to her eyes, she is so moved with her gratitude for his kindness. There have been any number of times that she has been genuinely surprised by these little actions on his part.

At first, she made the mistake of subconsciously relaxing after such an action. She still does not know why, and it's always bothered her that shortly after such a reward she would err in some way that would displease him. After she began to get an idea of what was happening inside, she began to take steps to keep this pattern from repeating itself.

Any time that Master has punished shayla for something, she has sought to use the experience. To take the circumstances surrounding the punishment and use it as a tool to improve. To add to her motivation to please him. Not to avoid further punishment, but to please him more than what she had been. For some reason she's not understood it seems to work. So she now tries to apply the same logic to the indulgences as well as the punishments. Use it as a tool to motivate her in further pleasing him. Again, she doesn't do this out of desire to receive more, she does it to please him more. One of the last things that shayla has entered this relationship for is what she might gain from her Master. She simply does not work in that way.

So now, when her Master takes her on an outing, lets her have the shrimp or raspberries that she adores, allows another item of clothing to be gotten for the joy of it, instead of necessity, she uses that indulgence. Uses it as a tool to improve her service to him. She keeps it in the forefront of her mind that he did this because he was pleased with her, and to maintain that behavior to continue to please him. Because he doesn't have to do such things. In our relationship, they're entirely optional on his part. He does them because he enjoys it, and because she has pleased him.

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