Focus

Over the past couple weeks shayla has been sick off and on. There's been a bug out there that decided it took a liking to shayla. No sooner did she shake it then it came back and hit her again. Being ill's never fun. One of the things being sick causes shayla is loss of IQ points. Anything resembling intelligence or sense goes down the toilet when shayla's sick, and it's nearly impossible to focus on anything requiring her attention. That's bad enough for anyone. For a slave, it's more difficult.

A kajira needs to be continually paying attention to both her Master and herself. Her Master, to see to it she understands and responds properly to his wishes, both spoken and unspoken. Herself, so that she maintains the proper attitude and respect for her Master and their respective stations.

Shayla is notoriously impatient and being sick brings that impatience out in its worst form. And at first, she had a great deal of trouble with being ill. She had things to do, workouts to perform, most importantly a Master to serve. And here's this pesky illness causing her to slow down and be unable to serve her Master at the level and pace she's become accustomed to. So shayla's inability to pay attention to what she needed to, coupled with letting it bother her to the extent it did, has caused displeasure on her Master's part. And with good reason. She'll not try to make any excuses for herself. While shayla was ill, there's no reason for that to cause a girl to err in such a manner. She still needs to focus on what's important. It seems to be a matter of the slave slowing down a little and pacing herself when she's ill.

After a time, she was able to figure out somewhat how to prioritize and focus on what she needed to the most. The pointed talking-to her Master granted her helped tremendously in getting her mind back on where it needed to be. Getting better, taking care of her Master's property. Namely, herself. Once she was able to internalize that, to focus on getting herself better, it seemed as though her recovery quickened. Not the way shayla would have preferred to learn this critical lesson. When a girl is ill, her focus has to be on taking care of her Master's property, herself. Seeing to it that it regains its health. That doesn't mean that she slack in paying attention to her Master's wishes or how she behave herself.

If only she had come to the full realization of it sooner.

shayla