Doormat?

Master has a friend that's no little shocked, appalled beyond belief, actually, at not only the level of shayla's service to him, but her acceptance of it. He has offered, more than once, to let this lady speak to shayla. This way assisting in dispelling any thoughts that shayla is a fool or stupid to lay down so easily. She has refused each and every one of them, preferring to hold to her opinions regarding shayla's surrender to her Master without the benefit of interacting with the key facet of her belief. It's something that shayla's heard of, but this is her first actual experience with such a thing.

There is the general mindset of the inattentive or ignorant that a girl who surrenders to a man on his terms as his slave is weak; has low self-esteem or is weak-minded; is unable to stand on her own two feet; is stupid or uneducated, maybe even lazy and wanting someone to support her. Shayla's never once actually seen or heard of any evidence of this. Quite the contrary, nothing could be further from the truth.

Each personal web-site or blog of every girl she's encountered all have the same thing in common. The girls behind the sites are intelligent, self-reliant, confident women. They are strong-minded and willed, resourceful, educated, and very smart. They have to be. Consensual slavery of this degree is not for the stupid or weak. That type of woman simply would be unable to deal with the magnitude of what she is doing. Shayla believes that such a woman would be ruined by entering in to such an arrangement.

Why? Numerous reasons. Again, the shayla's slavery is consensually non-consensual. From the minute she walked into her Master's door, she has had no authority, no say or power. Her Master has, from the beginning, been training her in how he wishes her to be. All his preferences in her speech, movements, activities, even eating habits. One of the reasons things have gone so well so far is due to shayla's intelligence and strength, her ability to adapt, to absorb what her Master is teaching her. She has had to remember his edicts, discipline herself to obey him to the fullest extent possible, even when he's not around.

There are a number of things that shayla faces on a daily basis that are a clear reflection of how far she has to come yet. Her level of fitness, weight loss, learning how her Master wishes her to move, speak, etc. If she had poor self-esteem or low self-worth, exposed to the same level of training or discipline she is, she would have thrown up her hands and quit by now, convinced that she'd never be able to do what it was he wished, that she was worthless and a failure. Were she stupid or not intelligent, she'd not have come as far as she has. She would be unable to progress in her training as far as she has. And both her Master and her would be absolutely miserable. If she were to want to be supported out of laziness, a person that lives off others, her Master would have caught onto the signals of that, and this blog wouldn't even exist, because the relationship wouldn't exist.

Again, Master is gentle and patient with her, but still pushes her as much as she can handle. It takes a certain amount of effort on her part to keep in mind the why's of this. That he is having her do all these things to improve her. To teach her and allow her the opprotunity for growth. It's all as much for her personal growth as it is for his service and pleasing him. There are a number of things shayla does daily that she doesn't want to do. She does them, she sees to it she does so. And the fact that she does attests to her strength of will, self-discipline, intelligence. There is also her level of understanding as to the why's of her Master's dictates. There are some things that Master has decided regarding shayla that he's not explained the why's to her. Of course, he's not had to. Firstly, because she is his property, and he isn't obligated to explain himself to what belongs to him. Secondly, he knows that she will either figure it out for herself, or will obey and follow his wishes without the benefit of understanding why. Simply having the faith that his reasons are sound.

Is shayla unable to stand on her own two feet? to support herself in this world? Certainly not. Her skills are universally marketable. She would never have difficulty in finding employment, friends, maintaining a home and life for herself. Which is, to her, one of the joys of this enslavement of hers. She doesn't have to do any of this, really. She could beg release of her Master and receive it. Instinct, desire to please, his pursuit of her, all are there though, all irresistible for her. She tried. It didn't work. Because there is something in her that increases, improves her, by being his property. So at the same time she would be her own woman by being free, she is more herself by Master's owning of her. In the past three months she has been more herself than in the previous 33 years. In being his rightless slave, with no authority, she has been freer than she has ever been.

Shayla knows to a great extent what she is capable of. She knows that while her Master is firm on her, it's for very good reasons. And while she does not have any authority as to what takes place, her Master allows her to express herself. Respectfully, properly, with deference to him as her Owner, but still honestly and thoroughly. She makes use of those times wisely.

It takes many things on a girl's part to be someone's slave. A stupid, weak woman would not have the strength to thrive under her Master's firm hand as shayla is. A woman that does not wish to do her part in a relationship such as this would quickly be released, as her Master would know what she was about. A true Master would not tolerate such a thing. And while shayla knows that she does not have final word, she does know that her Master listens to her. By listening she means he takes into account her feelings and thoughts on matters.

And there have been times that shayla's begged to speak freely, so that she would have the opprotunity to fully express herself on a subject. To express her feelings, thoughts and preferences. She is smart enough, though, to know that simply because her Master allows her to express these, that he will not necessarily allow them. Such a thing, to express what it is you want, prefer, would like to happen, knowing that it is only someone else's whim that will either allow or disallow it, takes courage, strength, and intelligence. There are any number of women in the world that would be unable to do so.

And that, to shayla, is all she needs to know that a kajira, subject to her Master's whim and all his dictates, is a very strong person, full of character and life.

Doormats need not apply.

shayla