"i haven't given You the authority to do that yet..."

That little phrase seemed to stand out to shayla as she was working on an entry. It is a good demonstration of how far she's grown in her service and surrender to her Master. She's never 'given' him any authority. He's had it all along. Shayla simply did not realize it at that point.

In many BDSM pairings, as well as a few Gorean pairings she's heard of, that relationship between Master and slave, there are conditions on the girl's part. Agreed-upon contracts, safe-words, limits to the girl's surrender, even things in her life that her Master is not allowed to influence or affect. The term 'Total Power Exchange' comes to mind. The Master and slave 'giving' each other a measure of power in the relationship.

shayla has been under her Master's hand for less than three months, but her enslavement to him has always been very one-sided when it comes to power. Master has all of it. She has absolutely none. Master made it clear to her from the very beginning that any girl that belonged to him would do so on his terms only. No qualifications or conditions. No safety net, save him and her obedience to him. She has not 'given' him any power at all. He quite simply captured and kept his hold on her, on a purely mental level. Even before she'd moved down to him, she was under his control to a great degree. A term that's been used often, one that shayla's always liked, is 'consensually nonconsensual.' Simply put, a girl knowingly leaves all authority, reservations and free will at the door when she enters into her Master's service.

Scary? Oh, yes, very much so. She fought it, tried to retain some level of self that she could keep from him. It never worked. He always slipped past her defenses and sunk further into her psyche. As he said, he's very good at breaking down barriers. Does this mean that he left her no options? Not in the least. Master warned her, more than once before she came to him, 'run, girl, while you still can.' Even after coming here, Master's asked, in all seriousness, if she was happy in his service. He is many things, but Master'd not keep a girl in his service if she unable to be happy there. Shayla is as committed to him and his service now, more so, even, as she was the first day when she walked, terrified of what she was doing, into his door. She will serve him and be his as long as he allows it.

And that seems to be a key. Master allows shayla to be employed outside the home, to continue her friendships with people that she's known for years, any number of other things. But it's with his permission. There are a number of things that were a part of her old life that she's not allowed. Some other girl could perhaps ask for them after he's denied his consent, try to find out why he's wanting her to do things a certain way, even try to wheedle or cajole him into letting her have her way. It's not in shayla to do that, to attempt to manipulate things in such a manner. She says manipulate because, no matter how sugar-coated some girl's attempts are, it's still, at it's root, manipulation. An attempt to set conditions on the girl's surrender.

There are some edicts Master's set that shayla does not fully understand the logic behind. But she is able to have the trust in him that he has good reasons for what he is doing, that in the end she will not come to harm by her obedience. He has his reasons, and all the authority he needs, in his own right. None of which did she 'give' him. It's not for shayla to understand them or agree with them. It's for her to obey them in a way that would be pleasing to the man she belongs to.