Bound

A comment posted about shayla's site came to her attention the other day.

"What I could not find on the blog site is any reference to the type of boundaries that keep the relationship structure in place. Is it threat of physical violence? Threat of afterlife punishment? Threat of starvation? Some form of fear is always present at the boundaries of our behavior..."

None of those, really.

In the society we have created for ourselves, there are those men that hold the women they desire by force of some kind. Coersion, threats to either the woman or those she cares for, abuse, mental and emotional blackmail and manipulation. The women who remain in those situations do so out of fear. Many of them are consciously aware they are in an abusive situation, they may even want to leave. Due to fear they remain. Such a circumstance tells on a woman's psyche, emotional status, the way they appear to the world. Regardless of how she attempts to make light of the situation, her every move and word shows that something is seriously wrong. She doesn't thrive. Rather, she stagnates, regresses. Strain, worry, and the active fear she can't evade tell on her daily, making the unhealthiness of her relationship patently clear and eventually affecting even her health and emotional well-being.

In the time shayla has been here, she has been fully under her Master's will. While he's allowed her to express her preferences and wishes, both of us know the final decisions in everything are his. She is only allowed her input. He pushes her, encouraging her in her exercises, dancing, everything that he's set for her to learn. If she laxes in her duties, she is met with his very pointed, firm correction.

Being under his will, though, in the past few months, she has not only been happy, she has been thriving. Her co-workers notice her continually increasing happiness and contentment. One even, amusingly enough to shayla, wanted to know what it was that shayla's man was doing to her that made her so happy. A key thing here is that her Master is not the one making her happy, she is.

Master doesn't threaten her in any way. He doesn't have to, even if he wanted to. She is held here not by him, but by herself. Since word one, he has been awakening something in her that she's been unable to resist. She feared it, tried to resist it, only to fail in the effort. Some kind of mental brain-washing on his part? Again, not even close. He's only been nurturing that part of her that's been awakening.

Consider this. In the past 3 1/2 months, shayla has become more assertive, confident, more beautiful even. She no longer needs anti-depressant medication, has lost 24 pounds and 3 sizes. The exercises that Master has taught her, which she does religiously, are helping tone her body as well as increase flexibility and strength. She not only is more beautiful, she feels more beautiful, sexier, even. She is finding herself again, through all this. And more, finding a her that she did not even know existed. She is better taken care of, cared for, than any number of women are by their husbands.

What holds this relationship together, this person asked? A combination of her Master's strong sense of responsibility to his property, and shayla's deep devotion to him. She could leave, if she were unhappy. Master's work keeps him from the house a day or more at times and she has resources. The collar she wears locks with a padlock, which she has a key to. In less than an hour she could leave, with no trace of her presence remaining. And if she were unhappy, she has only to beg release and he'd do so, even assist her in re-establishing her life apart from him. And in doing so she feels she'd betray herself as well as him. She'd be walking away from a part of herself that she'd be incomplete and unfulfilled without. That some have brushed against, but never struck with such accuracy as he has.

It is not her Master that keeps her bound so tightly to him. It is herself.

shayla